Tuesday, March 3, 2009

From Nerd to Nothing

Writing another blog after a long time. Really didnt get time to put my thoughts together to pen down another blog. But today I saw something, which really made me think on a different dimension altogether.

I got a mail from Linux for you, a magazine I have been an active member of which, ever since it started in  2004, about a forum - Open Source India 2009. It made me remember my college days and first one and half years of my career. This forum has been all Asia level forum, and first of its kind in Asia, gives a chance to meet a lot of open source freaks across the nation, plus a chance to hear from the Open Source gurus themselves.. some of the prominent speakers I had a chance to listen to were founders of MySQL and Eclipse... It was always fascinating to hear how those tech gurus became gurus in business as well. But of course, the other good thing was an oppurtunity to network with many other programming geeks in the forum. I remember when I went for this forum in 2005, I made as much as 10 friends, who were as geek as me or probably more than me.. I just loved their company a lot.. I was so much into Linux......... 

But after 2005, I moved to Chennai, but the forum was always conducted in Delhi. In 2007, there were a lot of requests came to Linux for You to start conducting such forums in south India as well. Finally they conducted one in Bangalore in 2008 and this time finally in Chennai.. 

But the current situation is totally different. I rarely open Linux.. I dont know if I have changed. My thought process is undergoing tremendous change.. not sure where I am heading to... May be towards NOTHING............ 

May be this is an improvisation of my overall self. Being a toto nerd often doesnt yield much in life.. probably money....... bt Life is bigger than being a tech geek.... there are lot of things to see, to learn.......... Holding on.. to see where the life takes me.......


Monday, November 5, 2007

Innovative Initiatives and Politics

Hi, am back again with another set of thought provoking blog..for quite some time, i have been writing techno-blogs, for which i have been highly criticised by close friendzzz.. So I have decided to put it off for some time.

Well, this blog I attribute to few bitter things that I have been experiencing around in my day to day professional life and thought of sharing it with you all. It begins with my journey in one of the India's largest telecom company. I happen to be working there for about 4 months in Corporate Office.. yes the place where all the biggies of the company sit.. & I got the most un-usual cubicle near the Delhi CEO and HR Head.

Courtesy my location, i always got to hear lots of office gossips and politics.. which I used to stay away though. Many things would surprise me, and most others would only affirm what is already told in movies like Page-3 and Corporate(Those who havent seen these two bollywood flicks, do seem them as soon as possible.. the biggest eye opener movies..). During those four months, I saw and met women who were willing to do almost anything for a promotion...(& I mean almost everything..), and men who were willing to go to any extent to snatch away other's credit for their own appraisal. I was a fresher when I joined that company, and upon noticing these things from such a proximity, was pretty disillusioning. Despite all this, I was happy, because my BOSS was cool and used to stay away from these politics business and keep me out of its reach.

Corporates play big games.. and I witnessed it with my bare eyes.. something which happened with me and my ex-boss.. We were executing a mega project for a large bank of India, and the project success was creating tremors, as the company had showcased the success of project to get few more banks as clients. All the big success had an impact and one fine day, we were told that the BIG BOSS (Chairman of the company) would like to meet the team who have been executing it. My Boss was very happy.. that was his life time oppurtunity to go and shake hands with the BIG BOSS. But soon, all that happiness faded, as were told that the project would now be controlled by some senior person and we would be mere co-ordinating it. It was pretty unusual thing to happen, considering the timing of this transfer of project.

Finally, the shock came - the project would officially be known to be handled by that senior guy and we get NOTHING. My poor boss, almost broke down.. I wasnt that bothered, because of two reasons - Firstly, I was a contract employee, so I wud never have got a chance to meet BIG BOSS; Secondly - I was moving to TCS (my current company.. ). I could very well sense his anguish towards the management. He decided to quit and move to a rival firm. But of lately, even that move was thwarted and he is still in the same company. There was no explanation given as to why that project was being handed over to the other guy... and wasnt allow to quit as well.. Can things go worse than this ? Perhaps, Unluck can bring the best of all in a pathetic situation.

Recently, one of my friend had come up a pretty innovative initiative which would help his company to grow itself within the client base. He had organized a big team for himself.. and with lots of efforts brought his dream to reality(well almost)... though applauded by all the bosses, and the senior Boss himself, the credit to it was officially handed over to some one who wasnt involved in the activity much at all. am Still confused as to why that happened..because am pretty sure that all the bosses knew who the conceiver and executer of this idea is, and despite that some one else is being given the full credit. Perhaps the water is much deeper than it looks like on the surface... and like everyone I am also afraid of trying to measure the depth.

I guess all these management decisions are taken more with political equations in consideration and less with rational thought. There is no place for feelings and emotions here. Its all about the game and How you play it.. so better keep your eyes on the game... bcoz Jiski Nazar Game se hati, samjo woh gaya...:)

Monday, March 5, 2007

Heads I lose, Tails I lose

In life, nothing comes free. Everything has a price tag attached to it. The same applies for success.

Different people have different definitions of success. Many take professional achievement as their milestones of success, and there are others who think the monetary achievement is the ultimate measure of success. But in this crowd, there are few, who believe in leading a balanced life is the success. Lets analyse all of these people in terms of what they got, and what they lost.

First, lets take the set of people who think professional achievement is the measure of their success. Career requires a lot of hard work and sacrifice. The ones' who are ambitious in their career pursuit, understand this very well. Hard work, Sacrifice .. these are terms that we traditionally think are the signs of great people. But in this context, sacrifice is often a mis-used term. Sacrifice is a pure term which bonds to selflessness. People who say they sacrified many things for their career growth are actually giving a wrong signal. They are trying to project their selfishness as their selflessness.

The second category of people, who think monetary achievements as measures of success are people I believe live in fool's paradise. They are filled with only two emotions - Fear and Greed. None of these would lead to betterment of life. We earn money to improve our life. But, if in the process, we often lose out to these sentiments. How far is it correct to lead a life like that?